'I Feel Pretty' Made Me Feel Really Really F*cking Sad
Another Amy Schumer film!!! Yes!! I cannot wait to *literally* laugh so hard a tiny bit of wee comes out.
Wait...why am I crying?
Hi, my name is Lisa Hamilton and I am a presenter for MTV and a code red, certified, hide-yo-kids-hide-yo-wife, obsessive Amy Schumer fan.
I have followed the hilarious New York comedian and trailblazer ever since I watched my first episode of Inside Amy Schumer. She got me. Her humour spoke to me. And not only was I entertained by her comedy but for the first time in maybe forever (?) I felt like it was ok to crack jokes and speak about "unsavoury" topics (dicks! vaginas! sex! being a woman! speaking out of turn! asking for what you want!).
She was fearless and funny and warm and became an immediate role model even if she never asked to be.
Since then I have followed her career and enjoyed watching the successes of her comedy specials and films alike. I even had the chance to speak to her on the red carpet when Trainwreck premiered in Sydney back in 2015. At that point I was low on the media food chain (still am lol) bustled in with all of the other digital media outlet journalists just hoping that waiting for 4 hours on the red carpet will result in a great soundbite (love you guys - you the real MVPs). As is the case with a lot of red carpets, usually the stars get over it and don't make it to the digital media section and choof off into the cinema. But not Amy. SHE SPOKE TO EVERYONE. Her responses were honest and sincere and look...just check out the video below.
So earlier this year when a teaser trailer for her new film 'I Feel Pretty' hit the internet...it goes without saying that I was frigggggen excited.
Billed as a sassy satire where a self-conscious woman hits her head and starts to believe she's the most beautiful woman in the world. That was enough to strap me in and get ready for the lols.
But instead I cried. I cried a lot. Of course I laughed as well, but the pain and sadness I felt was overwhelming. Hit me like a truck.
Some of the most poignant and heartbreaking moments in the film come when Schumer's character Renee looks in the mirror and without saying a word conveys the feelings of women across the world struggling to feel human in a world that holds such unrealistic beauty standards.
Tears well up in her eyes as she picks apart her body, her face, herself. And I cried because that's me. That's what I have been doing to myself for years. Since I was a little girl. And I cried because I am so exhausted with being so horrible to myself. And the guilt of being so horrible to myself as a CHILD, broke me.
As a presenter for MTV I am in the public eye. Which is 100% my choice. But I don't look like the presenters of yesteryear. I'm certainly no Ruby Rose and I'm no Erin McNaught. I don't have a child modelling career to add to my bio but a humble beginning as a farm girl from Northern NSW. But damn, am I a good presenter.
— MTV AUSTRALIA (@MTVAUSTRALIA) April 18, 2018
Much like Renee, who is full of charisma and sass and incredible intelligence, I let the comments from a few nasty Nancy's who tell me I don't look like the "perfect presenter" over-power my confidence. And it affects my work. Maybe because I'm not "hot" I'm not actually a good presenter? Maybe they're right? Maybe I should quit.
Well, I'm not going to.
A powerful message comes at the end of the film (dw no spoilers) - you're never going to be liked by everyone but do not let the harsh words of unhappy people make you believe you are anything but wonderful.
Like so many other women in the world, I have been letting those words get to me and I won't let it anymore. I know I am good at my job and I love it. So the next time someone tries to tell me I'm not good enough, I won't listen. Byyyyye bitch I'm fabulous!!!
So, to Amy Schumer and the creators or 'I Feel Pretty' - THANK YOU!
I didn't hit my head at a Soulcycle but something magical did happen after watching this film. I now know that I am fucking awesome and soon you will too.
Amy has said she made this film for her 12-year-old self and honestly you need to watch this to reconcile the sh*tty things you've been saying to yourself for years. It's about bloody time you did something nice for yourself :)
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